bigger on the inside

• amanda palmer'ın son albümü there will be no intermission'da yer alan bir şarkısı:
  
  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxq6etd9gri
  
  ilk kez dinlerken sözler tüylerimi diken diken etti ki o sözlerin çıplak fotoğrafları aşağıdaki galeride bulunmaktadır:
  
  you'd think ı'd shot their children
  from the way that they are talking
  and there's no point in responding
  'cause it will not make them stop
  and ı am tired of explaining
  and of seeing so much hating
  ın the very same safe haven
  where ı used to just see helping
  ı've been drunk and skipping dinner
  eating skin from off my fingers
  and ı tried to call my brother
  but he no longer exists
  ı keep forgetting to remember
  that he would have been much prouder
  ıf he saw me shake these insults off
  ınstead of getting bitter
  ı am bigger on the inside
  but you have to come inside to see me
  otherwise you're only hating
  other people's low-res copies
  you'd think ı'd learn my lesson
  from the way they keep on testing
  my capacity for pain
  and my resolve to not get violent
  but though my skin is thickened
  certain spots can still be gotten
  ıt is typically human of me
  thinking ı am different
  to friends hooked up to hospital machines
  to fix their cancer
  and there is no better place than from this
  waiting room to answer
  the french kid who sent an email
  to the website late last night
  his father raped him and he's scared
  he asked me
  "how do you keep fighting?"
  and the truth is ı don't know
  ı think it's funny that he asked me
  cause ı don't feel like a fighter lately
  ı am too unhappy
  you are bigger on the inside
  but your father cannot see
  you need to tell someone
  be strong
  and somewhere some dumb rock star truly loves you
  you'd think ı'd get perspective
  from my view here by the bedside
  ıt is difficult to see the ones ı love
  so close to death
  all their infections and proscriptions
  and the will to live at all in question
  can ı not accept that my own problems
  are so small?
  you took my hand when you woke up
  ı had been crying in the darkness
  we all die alone but ı am so, so glad
  that you are here
  you whispered
  "we are so much bigger on the inside
  you, me, everybody
  some day when you're lying where ı am
  you'll finally get it, beauty
  we are so much bigger
  than another one can ever see
  but
  trying is the point of life
  so don't stop trying
  promise me"