infinite dreams

• infinite dreams, i can’t deny them
  infinity is hard to comprehend
  i couldn’t hear those screams
  even in my wildest dreams
  
  suffocation, waking in a sweat
  scared to fall asleep again
  incase the dream begins again
  someone chasing, i cannot move
  standing rigid, nightmare’s statue
  what a dream, when will it end
  and will i transcend?
  
  restless sleep, the mind’s in turmoil
  one nightmare ends, another fertile
  getting to me, so scared to sleep
  but scared to wake now, in too deep.
  
  even though it’s reached new heights
  i rather like the restless nights
  it makes me wonder, it makes me think
  there’s more to this, i’m on the brink
  it’s not the fear of what’s beyond
  it’s just that i might not respond
  i have an interest, almost craving
  but would i like to get too far in?
  
  it can’t be all coincidence
  too many things are evident
  you tell me you’re an unbeliever
  spiritualist? well, me, i’m neither
  but wouldn’t you like to know
  the truth
  of what’s out there, to have the proof
  and find out just which side
  you’re on
  where would you in heaven or
  in hell?
  
  help me, help me to find my true
  self without seeing the future
  save me, save me from torturing
  myself, even within my dreams
  
  there’s got to be more to it
  than this
  or tell me, why do we exist?
  i’d like to think that when i die
  i’d get a chance, another time
  and to return and live again
  reincarnate, play the game
  again and again and again