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  i really don't know what i'm doing here
  i really think i should've gone to bed tonight but...
  just one drink
  and there're some people to meet you
  i think that you'll like them
  i have to say we do
  and i promise in less than an hour we will honestly go
  now why don't i just get you another
  while you just say hello...
  
  yeah just say hello...
  
  so i'm clutching it tight
  another glass in my hand
  and my mouth and the smiles
  moving up as i stand up
  too close and too wide
  and the smiles are too bright
  and i breathe in too deep
  and my head's getting light
  but the air is getting heavier and it's closer
  and i'm starting to sway
  and the hands on all my shoulders don't have names
  and they won't go away
  so here i go
  here i go again...
  
  falling into strangers
  and it's only just eleven
  and i'm staring like a child
  until someone slips me heaven
  and i take it on my knees
  just like a thousand times before
  and i get transfixed
  that fixed
  and i'm just looking at the floor
  just looking at the floor
  yeah i look at the floor
  
  and i'm starting to laugh
  like an animal in pain
  and i've got blood on my hands
  and i've got hands in my brain
  and the first short retch
  leaves me gasping for more
  and i stagger over screaming
  on my way to the floor
  and i'm back on my back
  with the lights and the lies in my eyes
  and the colour and the music's too loud
  and my head's all the wrong size
  so here i go
  here i go again...
  
  yeah i laugh and i jump
  and i sing and i laugh
  and i dance and i laugh
  and i laugh and i laugh
  and i can't seem to think
  where this is
  who i am
  why i'm keeping this going
  keep pouring it out
  keep pouring it down
  and the way the rain comes down hard
  that's the way i feel inside...
  
  i can't take it anymore
  this it i've become
  this is it like i get
  when my life's going numb
  i just keep moving my mouth
  i just keep moving my feet
  i say i'm loving you to death
  like i'm losing my breath
  and all the smiles that i wear
  and all the games that i play
  and all the drinks that i mix
  and i drink until i'm sick
  and all the faces that i make
  and all the shapes that i throw
  and all the people i meet
  and all the words that i know
  makes me sick to the heart
  oh i feel so tired...
  
  and the way the rain comes down hard
  that's how i feel inside...