the letter

• silentium'un sufferion hamartia of prudence albümünün acılı$ $arkisi..
  
  2nd of august 1757 his majesty ship providence,
  
  dear prudence my words can't describe how heavy my burden has been during these few months
  the rough sea has delayed our journey back for several days. the storm is settling now. and the crew is
  hastingly buying and loading cargo. unfortunately it requires my presence. so i'l i send this
  letter with the captain of the capricorn. the last will of my brother william, has been a sadding
  task, to try and sell his estate and belongings. his life's toil here, has grieved me as the
  memories of him come vividly haunting me. i miss home. the ways of the new world are not for me, and
  most of all i miss you, i could not believe my luck when i first met you.my endless
  dream is that you could be mine to love, i can only wish, though i think hopelessly, that i could
  make you even partly as happy as i am with you- if only your father would find it in his heart to
  understand our hearts desires over the fact that i am not of noble heir. i wish this voyage of
  grieves would be over i wish i was with you even though i'm not at home in the joyous eves, dances and
  masquerades of the court. hopefully you haven't locked your smile behind the door of your room,
  even when i'm gone. i do hope i am worthy enough to make you smile whence i return my flame still
  burns for you yours beloving... antracon..